Ten years ago today i put you to rest my love Etched into my memory is the image of you dying Holding my hand and crying, I still remember, on your bed you were lying Parting was inevitable we both knew But the pain of seperation being what it is I looked at you with burning embers on my heart I remember as if it were yesterday Dragging ourselves through the desert of travail Offering fleeting solace to each other Promises we made to one another Of a life beyond this life As we spake of our vows, eternal to ourselves Death crept in beside us Tolling the bells of eternal silence I remember as if it were yesterday I knew your eyes closed, never to open again The knife of pain slipped through my heart Slashing my mettle to shreds of pain The raging river of tears broke loose I knew i lost my life, my love Nevermore and nothing to live for Returning to my senses, reminding myself of the task That lay at hand I placed two silver coins upon your eyes and made a silent prayer to the boatman to take you across I remember as if it were yesterday Now my turn has come my love Time is but what seperates our unison Our promises fulfilled at last I long to join you across the river My soul is irked and no more i can take Long years measured in sorrow, anguish and pain The time has come to end the run I wistfully wait for the tolling bells Alas, i remember my fateful mistake In my yearning to join you Someone to place the coins upon my eyes Did i overlook The boatman shalt not carry me to you, across the river Forever i shall roam the nether in your reminiscence As i lay here a storm upon me and tears in my eyes Death creeps in beside me and with my last breath I think to myself Our parting is now eternal, goodbye my love.... The reference to the boatman and the river is this. The river is the eternal body of water that seperates life and death. To go to the afterlife after death one must cross the river in the boatman's boat. But the boatman needs two silver coins for this. This is part of Greek mythology and partly the fiction in my head. This was just in my head for a very long time and i felt i needed to write it, good or bad.