just wondering..y a crowd is so lonely is eating..drinking ...nd making merry life's motive only..? tody d whole world glitters nd shines yet i here remain incosed in my own personal confines... too much of merriness...too much ov cheer everythin is so damn perfect yet der is dis bloody fear.. ppl laugh..ppl smile nd to get used to it..i guess i really do need a wile.. hugs nd kisses r showered on me yet i m lost smwher fa away in my own mental engrossing journy.. i tried to ignore.. i tried to fyt bt smhow cud not get away wid dis unreasoned plyt.. everyone's happy yet i m sad i tried everthin' bt nthin's able to make me glad.. i guess i need to be wateva everyone wants me to b i guess i need to get out ov dis misery bt i still do wonder..y is d crowd so lonely...