Take it easy on me I'm a Newbie, but I'd appreciate some feedback.Found this group totally by accident, I was actually surfing for Native American content. But, then I started reading some of the stuff ya'll have written & I was IMPRESSED. We seem to have slightly different ways of looking at life but , thats what makes the worlds go round,I like to look at life from different perspectives.
I found this while digging around in some old papers. I wrote it over two decades ago. I was really surprised to find it 'cause I thought everything from back then had burned up in one of the two house fires I've been through and survived.
I find it mildly amusing. "They" have actually admitted to me, "they" think I've lived a remarkable life.
This, after giving me unasked for and unwanted advice on my new life as a young ex-wife.
Twenty three years old- thats all......but, hard won wisdom beyond my years.
I have rode my way through life, turning my back on the negative and the tears.
Strong minded and smart, I have always loved the who and what...The way I am, inside, down deep.
I've given over control of my life before,My choice, my mistake, no one to blame,with disastrous results that made me weep.
No one can do to you what you don't allow and so,a mutually distructive relashionship ends.
And suddenly I have learned that what I really need in life is,just my son, some family and some friends.
The problem though today is people don't appreciate their lives.
Nothing is ever enough and Loving is worse pain then being gutted with knives
.... or so "they" think.
But, your life too can change with one simple blink of your tear filled eyes.
And your whole world clarifies,and you see the mental pollution and come to realize,
How much time you've wasted on self pity and pathetic cries.
You think of the ones who have nothing, who starve, with no shelter, no relief.
While you sit in your room and purposely listen to sad songs. It's all make believe grief!
This one won't call me and this one is talking shit!
Why live your life right? If you really can't handle it?
This is life, and with a mind so put together,
I'll explain my remarkable(?) lifestyle.
I try to learn new things everyday, life is a learning process, not a trial.
I have learned to ignore the ignorance and laugh at the stupid things that people say.
I do the work that's required and take time to play,
And though my life is at a weird time right now and duty calls,
Taking care of my grandmother with Alzheimers is no excuse to fall.
It's no excuse for unhappiness, no excuse to why I'm not in school,
And I know if I play my cards right, God will get me through this and everything will be cool.
As unbelievable as it seems, there are moments of humor ,kindness and life affirming selflessness to whitness, even in this.
This too, is a season, a life lesson. I wonder, when I'm older,which memories, from this time, will I choose on to reminisce?
I try my best to think of others, but not so much as to take their pain.
I try and understand the ungifted or the mentally insane
..... and trust me I've seen a few....
Good WILL come from my life....
This REMARKABLE ! HAPPY!! life !!!
And though some days are harder then others, I know everything will turn out right.
Loneliness is my option... No choice "they" say... Stop being so picky, you'll end up alone in the night.
But, I'll be damned to settle for just anyone! Your just scared, "they" say.
Oh YEAH!... that's definitely me! Ha Ha Ha !One day they tell me my life isn't "carefull" enough,
The next, I should settle for any man that will "take care" of me 'cause life is too tough!
Ha ha ha! Oh yeah, I'm funny too!, Sometimes my life seems but a joke... and the joke is quite stupid!
But , I have my dreams.My dreams are so real that they are my sanity and my serenity. They are what keep me quietly lucid.
My dreams and the very real love in my life.
OH yes..... everything is quite alright.
....My true friends
...and my remarkable life.
Is it REALLY so different from yours?
SOOOO? Feedback Please?