i did not surrender ,, i resigned
i don't surrender
i resign from you life
yes, i want to end it all with that shining knife
i am not afraid
to point out the goodbyes that i bade
i am not stupid, coward, eccentric or bad
guess that my share of miseries i have had
i know i am not mature enough to think what i am thinking
but i can't think of anything else ..my heart here is sinking
i think of family..drop a tear
and wipe it off...still no fear
i think of every unimportant person in my journey
then i know that none would care though they are so many
i think of friends and i cry some more
feeling that im ditching everyone ..feeling as disgraced as a whore
i then think of you
then remember that we're through
i stare at the moon
like some loon
i know you won't care
i think then why shall i not take up this dare
half of my life, i've just lived so that you might take notice
i am thinking now to slit through that wrist, be carefree and know bliss
i pick up the knife
i shut my eyes
think of all the betrayals, all the lies
trying hard to shift my thoughts to something wise
i can't! i just can't i slash it though..i cry..but not for this pain
but for some other..that probably has no name
i breathe fast ..and i breathe slow and i fall on the ground
close my eyes..losing my breath..just wanting to feel you around
and knowing that no one would come .. i drop a tear
shutting my eyes for one last time..ah i now feel you near
and i put up my smile
just for one last time.
i did not surrender..i resigned from you life
i am now free..in bliss ..i am done away with all struggle and strife ..
i am strong on the surface... not all the way through..
i've never been perfect but neither have you...
so if you're asking me i want you to know..
when my time comes..forget the wrong that i've done , help me leave behind some..reasons to be missed..