i stare at this papr .. 4 d frst time i feel strangely empty..
today is the frst timet i felt dat i actually was all alone..i felt dat even my soul betrayed me..
my brain is brimmin' wid all thots ov thots
i am calmly tryin to break thru 4m all d tyt knots..
i wasn't successful..i went in vain
my heart today beats as usual....bt 4 dis unbearable pain..
i think of the time now...i think of the time passed by
as i think...i feel this salty water roll by..
if i were to know that i had to live without u
if i were to know dat all alone by dis rough phase i had to go thru..
if i were to know dat i no longer posess ur shoulder
if i wer to no suddenly life wud b so practical nd colder..
trust me wud neva hav lived nymore
trust me i wud hav found myself even more disgraced dan a whore..
i am empty today
i feel everythin' .. slowly swayin' away...
i need u .. nd u knw dat i do
bt i know dat u won't cm back...
i understand .. bt u knw dat widout u smthing's always gonna lack..
its like a hole that has been punched thru my chest
i wish it was not u..wish dat dis hole was easy to congest..
all i say is that i lov u..nd will do dat 4eva..
whereva u myt b..wateva d circumstances myt b.
i won't let u go...dat easy..