Look, look at your creation
Do you see the monster you've made?
Once a naive child
ecstatic and carefree
Lost in a world of euphoric delusion
Corruption was unknown and selfishness was unpercievable
Vengeance was foolish and hatred was not an option
Here i stand with an insuppresible thirst
Quenched only by the screams of the dying
And the blood of the dead.
All i wanted was love to cherish
All i wanted was affection to treasure
And all i wanted was care to feel worthy
I was met with the unsurmountable barrier
That was you.
Mocking my efforts at compassion
Pushing me towards my humane extinction
All under the mask of making me a man
Fit for living in this world.
Did your man meet your expectations?
Wild matted hair, overwhelming sadness in my eyes,
Lost in this abyss of hopelessness
I decided to fight against my helplessness
Knowing only one way, the way you gave unto me
Feed off pain and dine on misery
Eat on souls and thrive
What you taught me is this and what i did was thus
Knife in hand, hatred in my mind
and fury in my eyes
i spotted my first victim and made her writhe
The dancing blade in my hand weaving through
Her seemingly ethereal body
Eliciting the cries that made me shiver with happiness
In anticipation of the next one
This is what you made me
That was to be my last attempt at wholeness
I was captured and confined
Deemed a mentally ill human being
Tossed into depraving captivity
All while you watched
In seeming nonchalance
Why did you think i deserved this?
With no respite for my anger
No calming screams to help me sleep
The hell within me threatens
To engulf me and burn me into
A handful of living ashes
Why dont you do anything?
You raised me to up to be what i will be
Your countenance is what led my life here
There is nothing to live for anymore
Look at what you did to me
You left me disturbed
You still leave me disturbed......