now i understand the reason for the "silent_dragon"
i donno if i'm right but u seem to have a lot inside u, but dont seem to find an answer..
hope whever problems u have are sorted out
n don worry i dont think anyone would make fun of this poem
Thus drifting afar to the dim-vaulted caves
Where life and its ventures are laid,
The dreamers who gaze while we battle the waves
May see us in sunshine or shade;
Yet true to our course, though the shadows grow dark,
We'll trim our broad sail as before,
And stand by the rudder that governs the bark,
Nor ask how we look from the shore!
Oliver Wendell Holmes