sometimes, all of a sudden i tend to feel so incomplete..
lying down with my remorse .. hugging to my defeats ..
i am lit and..i burn .. but without any heat..without any flame..
i suffocate and i struggle in the arms of my defeater ..sighing his name ..
there are times when you are so far yet so close...so close yet so far ..
i shut down the windows to my brain and set the door of my heart ajar ..
i am cold ..my face is white as a sheet..
petrified yet expectant i am..my future..i want to meet
digging my nails deep into the soulless bed..
inside i feel like its an explosion of red..
getting numb with each breath .. feeling alive with each touch ..
filling you in me..feeling you with me while i moan..while i clutch ..
and suddenly i enter in a new world..world that i am unaware of.. world that holds fantasies many
world that seems to know all my answers..breathing into me and completing me without actually telling me any..
and then i feel no need to know anything further
and then i feel all those dreams that i nurture
and then i seek no answers..and then i have no questions
and then i set free to fly high..without standing on any queer notions
i cry out loud..brimming with ecstasy ..
shutting my eyes and trying not to believe at my destiny..
still shuddering in the arms of my enemy
but there is a difference, and it is that .. now i am complete.. now i am at ease.. now my white face gleams
now i am full .. now i am not tired.. now i shut my eyes and i sleep .. in the lap of beautiful and happy dreams
i am satisfied..